A good evening to one and all.
This will be my final post. I'm gonna move blog. I will have to decide which, but that's not important now. It's apt to shift to my next phase as I previously mentioned- godspeed.
This is also apt as a final post, a eulogy of sorts to my beloved team mate Thaddaeus.
Today was his final day on Earth.
Even as I'm typing this, I can't believe it. It's seriously so unrealistic and unbelievable. He was a healthy, fine young man as many knew him. I'm seriously wondering why this happened, though I do not blame God. Humans can't possibly fathom the reason for such things and God is sovereign.
I do feel sad though, for terribly will I miss him and right now, I feel like crying again. I'm sure many of you know I'm not the crying sort of person, but this is one time I cried. I received the call from Caijing after Divya messaged me, asking me "Have you heard?". I immediately felt a sort of shock. I had a terrible feeling. I knew something was amiss. Even still, I wasn't prepared for what followed. Caijing called to say that Thaddaeus passed away on his way to the hospital after collapsing during the run segment of the SEA Games Triathlon trial this morning.
I am doing what I have found myself doing ever since that fateful call this afternoon. I am recalling the last time I spent with him. I truly thank God I decided to go the Bishan library to study and spend time with him on Friday after training. We had such a fun time. It was on that day I had just decided to put in an active effort to know him, since I realised that he could relate to me and felt comfortable sharing with me. It's too late now. I just realised something 15 mins ago as I was typing this post. I realise that as he was getting his massage from Alvin, I wanted to try giving him a massage as he said it didn't hurt. I said, "nevermind la, I'll do it next week", which now, the next week is coming, but he will not be around anymore.
I totally cried in church after realising I wil never ever see him again, save for the wake, which I definitely will attend. Seriously, it's a tragedy. He was always laughing and loving life. He was a patient guy and trained hard. I'll truly miss him.
One thing I thank God is that he was a Christian and that one day, one fine day I'll see him again. As a friend, I wanna make him proud. I think that in his passing, he has given me a gift- a gift only something this colossal could. He has given me, in a non-blaspheming way, the gift of life. More aptly put, by his passing, he has allowed me to rethink how I want to spend my life. He has let me see life new again. Thadd, if you're reading this wherever you are, I truly thank you for being the wonderful team mate you were and friend you were, really.
Man, I seriously am gonna miss him. I'm sorry I'm rambling and this post is totally unorganised, but I can't help it. I'm recalling now that last dinner I had with him. I don't regret that I was late for cell that day. I spent it with him, while he was waiting for his bro to be done running. As I ate and we talked, we truly enjoyed ourselves. I'll never forget his words to me that day. We were talking about girls and life and comparing this and that. I was telling him how people complained I have high standards and he was like "Actually I can totally see you making yourself famous and then finding yourself a model for a girlfriend." The funny guy. Even then, God was using him to be a blessing to me, to remind me of my dream God gave me.
Seriously, all this just makes one think of death and the power of death and the power of life. I truly believe that there is life in death and that through his passing Thaddaeus is being a blessing to us and once again, I truly thank him.
Reading Caijing's post-cum-eulogy of sorts, I remember after he collapsed at the Nationals for biathlon while he was winning by a stretch, that there might be a problem, since he collapsed and was unconscious for quite a while... It's too late now. It's too late.
Thadd, God bless your soul and I'll be praying for your family. Bless your heart.
Thadd, this one's for you.
This will be my final post. I'm gonna move blog. I will have to decide which, but that's not important now. It's apt to shift to my next phase as I previously mentioned- godspeed.
This is also apt as a final post, a eulogy of sorts to my beloved team mate Thaddaeus.
Today was his final day on Earth.
Even as I'm typing this, I can't believe it. It's seriously so unrealistic and unbelievable. He was a healthy, fine young man as many knew him. I'm seriously wondering why this happened, though I do not blame God. Humans can't possibly fathom the reason for such things and God is sovereign.
I do feel sad though, for terribly will I miss him and right now, I feel like crying again. I'm sure many of you know I'm not the crying sort of person, but this is one time I cried. I received the call from Caijing after Divya messaged me, asking me "Have you heard?". I immediately felt a sort of shock. I had a terrible feeling. I knew something was amiss. Even still, I wasn't prepared for what followed. Caijing called to say that Thaddaeus passed away on his way to the hospital after collapsing during the run segment of the SEA Games Triathlon trial this morning.
I am doing what I have found myself doing ever since that fateful call this afternoon. I am recalling the last time I spent with him. I truly thank God I decided to go the Bishan library to study and spend time with him on Friday after training. We had such a fun time. It was on that day I had just decided to put in an active effort to know him, since I realised that he could relate to me and felt comfortable sharing with me. It's too late now. I just realised something 15 mins ago as I was typing this post. I realise that as he was getting his massage from Alvin, I wanted to try giving him a massage as he said it didn't hurt. I said, "nevermind la, I'll do it next week", which now, the next week is coming, but he will not be around anymore.
I totally cried in church after realising I wil never ever see him again, save for the wake, which I definitely will attend. Seriously, it's a tragedy. He was always laughing and loving life. He was a patient guy and trained hard. I'll truly miss him.
One thing I thank God is that he was a Christian and that one day, one fine day I'll see him again. As a friend, I wanna make him proud. I think that in his passing, he has given me a gift- a gift only something this colossal could. He has given me, in a non-blaspheming way, the gift of life. More aptly put, by his passing, he has allowed me to rethink how I want to spend my life. He has let me see life new again. Thadd, if you're reading this wherever you are, I truly thank you for being the wonderful team mate you were and friend you were, really.
Man, I seriously am gonna miss him. I'm sorry I'm rambling and this post is totally unorganised, but I can't help it. I'm recalling now that last dinner I had with him. I don't regret that I was late for cell that day. I spent it with him, while he was waiting for his bro to be done running. As I ate and we talked, we truly enjoyed ourselves. I'll never forget his words to me that day. We were talking about girls and life and comparing this and that. I was telling him how people complained I have high standards and he was like "Actually I can totally see you making yourself famous and then finding yourself a model for a girlfriend." The funny guy. Even then, God was using him to be a blessing to me, to remind me of my dream God gave me.
Seriously, all this just makes one think of death and the power of death and the power of life. I truly believe that there is life in death and that through his passing Thaddaeus is being a blessing to us and once again, I truly thank him.
Reading Caijing's post-cum-eulogy of sorts, I remember after he collapsed at the Nationals for biathlon while he was winning by a stretch, that there might be a problem, since he collapsed and was unconscious for quite a while... It's too late now. It's too late.
Thadd, God bless your soul and I'll be praying for your family. Bless your heart.
Thadd, this one's for you.
In Loving Memory by Alter Bridge
Thanks for all you’ve done
I’ve missed you for so long
I can’t believe you’re gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I’ve never knew what it was
To be alone...no
Cause you were always
There for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me
I carry the things
That remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you’re gone
You still mean the world to me
I’ve never knew what it was
To be alone...no
Cause you were always
There for me
You were always home waiting
But now I
Come home and it's not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I just can't believe you're gone
And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me
I’m glad He set you free from sorrow
But I’ll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here
With me still
All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me
"Call unto Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know." -Jeremiah 33:3
Thadd's in the last row. Third from the left.
One day, I'll write a song for you and I make sure the world will know it.
In loving memory of Thadd.
1990-2007
A true brother-in-Christ.
Yours was a life too short, but your memory and influence will live on long in our hearts always.
We love you and miss you.
You have inspired to push on and give my best.
I'll see you when I get there.
Meanwhile, do us all a fave and say hello to the Big Man Up There, will ya pal? =* )
Labels: Death, Eulogy, Farewell, Final Post, Friend, I'll miss you, In Loving Memory, Team mate, Thaddaeus
mr epiphone tried to solo again
Alright! It's time for a chronicling of what's been up lately. I don't like my previous post and what better to replace it than a post on the Anberlin concert on Sunday?! Whoo! I (actually my dad) paid 60 bucks to let me go watch them. They were the last band featured that night but darn it was worth the wait. They played The Feel Good Drag, Never Take Friendship Personal, Paperthin Hymn, Godspeed (which btw is the name I feel like getting for my next blog. or rather, have felt like for ages. it is also the second phase in life to me. My life, I have decided will be categorised into three phases-Godbreathed, Godspeed and then Godsent. Yea.3G. lol.) Anyway, they played Hello Alone too. Can't remember what else though. Hmmm. Anyway, I was crazy enough to go for their acoustic set the next night too. They're good alright. They have a good stage presence. Even in their acoustic set I though they did better than Copland, another big name indie band. Indie cos they're relatively unknown too, though bigger than Anberlin I think. Anyway, -ooh, The Unwinding Cable Car by Anberlin's playing now on my playlist. I bought their latest album. heh.- Where was I. Oh, before I go on, they played this at their acoustic set. Ok, as I was gonna say, Copland's singer has quite a good voice. They have a few nice songs too. I still maintain that Anberlin is better, for now at least. I found out from Seema today that she was there too and Narpal too apparently. Didn't see them. They were in the front. Oh well. Had quite a blast. I wonder what it's like playing on stage man. I have to find out for myself sometime. Have to get good first.A rather joyous post, eh?*+_)
I'll finish up with lyrics from Godspeed by Anberlin
Burning down neverland.
Scatter the ashes, white lines.
Black tar, the matches is this another death by misdaventure.
Tell me what you got.
What you really got.
We'll rest in our graves.
Lexington course your veins.
Sleepers can't just wake the dead.
When needles and lovers collapse on guilty beds.
Fall asleep.
Don't fall asleep.
They lied when they said "The good die young."
Stay with me tonight.
Burning down the bridges now.
Scatter the ashes.
Godspeed to all you're after.
Is this a lie just to remember?
Tell them who you were.
Who you really were.
Kill yourself over time.
Fashion statement suicide.
She's still asleep in a Chelsea hotel.
Bad turns to worse, and the worst turns into Hell.
Fall asleep.
Don't fall asleep.
God save the eyes that dim tonight.
They lied when they said "The good die young."
Stay with me tonight.
alright. that's it.
night!
Labels: Anberlin, Concert, Music
mr epiphone tried to solo again
